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So this morning, I'm driving into work, crying because the week-long headache that subsided a little over the weekend is back in full force. I know I've only been at my job for 5 months but I am ready to admit that I made a bad decision in taking this job and move on. The job as presented to me (manager with hire/fire, decision making and such) was a lie. I am basically a middle manager that has to constantly ask for permission. And then I'm asked to be proactive. But every time I make a decision without asking my  manager (there are 6) I am told I should have asked for permission. And then when I ask for permission, I'm told that I should be proactive. I wanted to fire a worker for being rude and insubordinate, but instead my manager threw me under the bus with my higher up manager (who I am not supposed to talk to about HR stuff because it makes us look bad). It's a constant struggle to force myself to come here daily. I am in charge of "morale" for a team of 85 people and there IS a budget, but not one of my expense reports has been paid. I refuse to spend any more money until I see those come back. You can't pay me this little and then ask me to dig into my pockets further. It's so disorganized and convoluted. Now we're interviewing people for other manager's teams, and people are being added to our teams without us even meeting them. It's ridiculous. I need out. I would rather be digging ditches. But the job market is fierce. You all know I'm not a whiner and I try to make things work when I can but I'm throwing up my hands.  Let me know if you hear of anything. I don't care if it's QA or Games or whatever. Thanks.

Date: 2014-05-12 07:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] loree.livejournal.com
Have any project management experience? I think that's where we're hurting the most in the Seattle office, but we have several other positions open right now also.

Date: 2014-05-12 07:51 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Well depends on how you define project management. One could say I'm doing that now (but my title wouldn't). I'll check it out, thanks, Loree.

Date: 2014-05-12 07:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] princessgeek.livejournal.com
lol just unscreened my own comment. Oh, LJ.

Date: 2014-05-12 11:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] animimi.livejournal.com
Ugh. I'm sorry you're stuck in a shitty situation (for now). Here's hoping something better comes along soon.

Date: 2014-05-12 11:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] thetar.livejournal.com
Hugs. Sounds liks typical MS bullshit. I know enough folks out there and my therapist who has a lot of MS patients says this a lot. But having spent 8 years with a crappy employer and a soft to bad job market put me in such a shitty spot in my life so I get that. So let's start looking for something better.

Date: 2014-05-13 03:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dianthus.livejournal.com
Oh ick. Sadly, I'm desperate enough that I'm interest in underling jobs...anywhere. Still got any?

Date: 2014-05-13 03:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] princessgeek.livejournal.com
yes and no. probably not til June, if you can send me a resume, I can put you in the hands of the recruiter (who makes the first call). Anything you can put on there in regards to games (betas count) or game testing is a plus.

Date: 2014-05-14 04:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] electriclime.livejournal.com
I"m feeling your pain - workwise and headwise.

The job market is ridiculous right now. I keep thinking about a new job, but reality hits and it's just so damn depressing.
I have no answers, because I have no magical jobs - but I'll keep my fingers crossed for you anyway.
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